Assalamualaikum.

Hey diamonds. Do you remember my second entry? I did say that I should try to be brave to face my problems right? So, syaza berani dah hadap masalah syaza. And you know what? My problem had settled. Alhamdulillah and thank you to my friend, Tuan Izzati Dayana. Because she lend me her time to hear my problem and tolong syaza sampaikan hasrat syaza. 

You know what, don't be afraid with the mistakes we have done. Because there is the courage for us to correct our mistakes. No matter how big our problems are, face it. Because if we run, we make it more bigger. Semangat dok? Pandai syaza berkata-kata. 

Friends are the most unique creations ever. There's a good friends, bad friends, clingy friends, cute, brave, big, small, black, white, beautiful, smart, and more lah. They can give you a lot of memories. Whether good or bad memories. Hargailah mereka semua, jangan jadi macam syaza yang dahulu ya semua. Yang dok pernoh hargai kawan-kawan syaza dahulu la. But now I appreciate them okay. Let the past go lah. 

I love all my friends, either girl friends or boy friends. Got me? 😉 

LOVE, SYAZA.

Assalamualaikum.

Hey guys, so today we will talking about death. Okay no I'm just kidding. Syaza rindu kucing-kucing syaza. They died about a weeks ago. I miss them badly. Although they just kittens but I feel bad of losing them.

How they die;

Timoh ;

Okay I will describe about her, she is a girl. Yes, a girl. Because I don't want to treat them like animals. They all my babies. She's blind. That morning, when I woke up, I wanted to play with them. But then I realize one of them not in the cage. I think positive. Maybe my dad bring her to clinic. But it was 8:00 a.m. So early. I called my dad and ask him where's Timoh. She died. Guys, my heart broke, my eyes full with tears. Then I go grab Awang, and hug him. I cried. Urm, dad removed the carcass into the river. I wanted to put her on, but did not get it.

Awang; 

He is the most clingiest boy. I love him so much. Damn I'm crying. That night, the last night. I was able to sleep with him. Okay act I had slept in my room. But then I shocked by the sound of Awang. Then I woke up and go to him. I let him drink milk, slept beside me. He slept with me. Too closed. Really closed. I can felt him. Die comel. Macam bola, syaza rase nk peluk die. After he slept I kept him into his cage. In the morning, when I woke up, my mom told me that Awang looked so sick. Oh, I forget to tell you that Awang is so chubby. But that morning his body was so thin. Awang nazak sangat. Macam nyawe-nyawe ikan. Once when he make a sound I told him to stay, because I don't want to lose him. I cried, tears came out. I don't know what to do anymore. I kiss him. You know what, when I went to animal treatment center, they said Awang already gone. Allah sahaje yang tahu betape sedihnye syaza mase tu. Syaza nge adik syaza, hakim, tanam die kat belakang rumoh. Just like human burial. 

Dulu syaza benci kucing, really really hate them. But then all those kittens make syaza had that felling to be more kind to others creation. They make me realize that all of living things in this world are the same. Do good to all of them, if you want to be treated well by them.

LOVE, SYAZA.

Assalamualaikum.

This's about my mouth act, umm okay. I'll start the story like this, about 3 years ago, I regret with what I had did. My friends trust me but then I broke the trust. I make them hate me without I realize. Pepatah melayu ade mengatakan, "kerana mulut, badan binasa." Yeah, now I understand the meaning behind that saying. 

When my friend want my help, but then I ignore it by saying "mu ingat aku kuli batok mu ke?". Rude is the best word to describe my attitude. I didn't see my false, I only see their false. I also accuse them of something not true. Now, I'm shaken by guilt.

I really want to apologize about what had I did before. I want to send you guys a messages, but I'm scared. I'm scared that you guys don't want to talk to me anymore. 

Try. Maybe I should try to be brave to face my own problems. 

If you read this or if you know who am I talking about, tell them, show them all this. Should I tell you their name? Okay sure then. Adaa and Izzah. 

Remember, people come and go, appreciate them.

LOVE, SYAZA.